Before I begin, let me explain what is happening to me. The technical term for what I am is called an eidetic. You’ve probably heard of people with photographic memories, well that’s what it is, except eidetics are not limited by the visual sense in what they remember. While each case varies in their specific capabilities, feelings of sound, taste, smell and touch can also be vividly recalled at any time. Some eidetics are also known to have the ability to see what they are thinking. This is the category that I belong in.
I have to admit, this ability does have its perks. School is a breeze because I can see my notes next to every exam that I take. I’m able to bring up happy memories that I’ve had with friends and family to help brighten their day. Whenever I get bored I can read books that I’ve read or watch TV shows that I’ve watched in my head.
Seems cool right? At least that’s what people tell me. I wish they were right.
What they don’t know is that I would give anything in the world to be rid of this.
The way that my vision works is that in addition to what my eyes actually see, my brain overlaps whatever I’m thinking of over this and the result is a combination of the two. Therefore the effect of my “mental vision” is limited during the day because my actual vision interferes with it. But whenever I go to bed, and the room is totally dark, my mental vision is given free reign of what I see.
Now one might ask, why is this so bad? As long as you think of pleasant things this must be a very relaxing way to go to bed right? This would imply that you are in complete control of every thought that goes through your head at all times. This, however, is almost never the case. The brain is constantly bombarded with what are called “intrusive thoughts.”
I’m sure you’ve heard the normal creaks and groans from your house at night and you think that maybe someone or something is walking around in the dark. Fear swells in you for a few seconds, but after a minute or so of nothing happening, you are able to shrug it off as your imagination and go to sleep. This is an intrusive thought. Though you know there is nothing there, your brain forces you to think, at least for a moment, that there is. Except with me, these intrusive thoughts conjure an image that accompanies the sound. Sounds in the night are always accompanied by some sort person or creature walking around my room or standing there watching me.
Obviously, this made growing up hard. I couldn’t understand any of this when I was young and just assumed that there were monsters in my room when I went to bed. Many a night my parents would rush into my room after hearing my cries and try to console me even though their presence never made the image go away. Eventually I could understand that the images weren’t real because they were all things that I had seen before and being able to recognize where they came from had a calming affect. I learned to live with, and even anticipate the “entities” that would appear each night.
Until a few months ago.
I had just gotten back to my apartment after a long night working at the hospital and I noticed that my roommate wasn’t home. I assumed that he was out at the bars, thought nothing of it, and went inside. As I opened the door to my apartment, the normal darkness greeted me and my mental vision took over as I walked over to the light switch. Just as I was about to turn on the lights, I saw a man at the end of the hallway looking at me. I could tell that he was just an image, but for the first time, he was something that I had no memory of. He was extremely fat, and had no clothing except for a small, black bolo hat on his balding head. His skin was a light, sickly purplish color and appeared to be peeling across his clearly disease-ridden body. His mouth hung open, revealing a set of gangrenous teeth and pus laden stump of a tongue. But the thing that stuck out the most was that he had no eyes or even eye sockets. They were replaced with lumps of flesh that seemed to grow from the edges of his hat.
My hand hesitated on the light switch and my fear was temporarily replaced with curiosity. I wanted to see what this man would do if I sat around for awhile; he was after all, just an image that my brain had conjured up. So I took a seat on my couch and observed quietly. After a few minutes he started to move. Like all of my other hallucinations, his actions made no noise in the real world, and he just silently shuffled around my apartment. He didn’t seem to be heading towards me at all, nor did he appear to have any clear destination in mind. I started to lose interest and got up to turn on the lights and get ready for bed.
Then he spoke.
A fear, the likes I which I have never known, resonated down my entire spine. None of my hallucinations had ever made their own noises, let alone form words. I tried to rationalize that maybe I had heard people talking either from outside my window, or perhaps outside my door. But before I even had a chance to validate my claims, he spoke again.
“She just wanted to see you again.”
His voice was garbled and deep, and he spoke very quietly, but I heard every word. Panic took hold of me and I bolted for the light switch. As always, the light instantly made the man disappear and I was left alone in my apartment. Relief washed over me, and I tried to make sense of what had just happened. I knew that the voice had come from the man, but I couldn’t figure out how that was even possible. I didn’t recognize him from any scary movie I had seen or any picture on the internet, nor could I recall anyone talking like that. No matter what conclusion I came to, I knew that I would see him again when I went to bed.
He didn’t disappoint. No sooner had I jumped under my covers, he waddled into my room. I tried to distract myself from him by thinking of other things. I resorted to my normal tactic of getting an image of my sister to appear to calm me down. She was always so understanding, even when we were kids, of what happens to me. Her presence made me feel at peace and I relied on her to get me through some of my more severe “episodes.”
However, her image also seemed to have an effect on him. He immediately stopped his shufflings and seemed to turn to where she was. It is difficult for me to describe what he did next because it makes me question my sanity, but he somehow forced her to fade from my vision. It wasn’t possible. I should of been able to keep her in my vision if I thought of her, but for the first time…I couldn’t. As soon as she faded, he spoke again.
“You should of been there. She thought about you at the end.”
A memory was then thrust into my mind. It was of my grandmother; she had been in the hospital for the last few months of her life and my dad used to take my sister and I to visit her. My grandmother adored us, and absolutely loved whenever we came to see her. One time when my dad was going to visit, I told him that I wanted to hang out with my friends instead and he obliged. That was the last time that my dad went to see her and she died a few days later. I felt horrible for not going and regretted it for a long time.
These feelings of regret and sorrow overwhelmed me and I suddenly realized the meaning behind the man’s words. He was somehow able to project a memory that I didn’t want to think about and relive the emotions that I felt during it.
He has visited me every night since then. Each time a horrible moment in my life is wrenched from my subconscious and I endure the sorrow of each event. Each night I am unable to cope with the overwhelming surge of emotions and what little sleep I get is plagued by nightmares of these memories. I see no end in sight and am at my wits end.
I often think of the nature of heaven and hell and whether or not there is a god. Originally I was inclined to believe that there couldn’t exist a god that would allow this kind of torment to be inflicted on a person who, seemingly, did nothing to deserve it. However, I cannot think of a more terrifying version of hell than this. To be forced to relive and reconsider each bad decision in one’s life is the ultimate and most effective method to push a soul to it’s breaking point.
I can see only one way to escape this. If my family reads this, just know that I love you all and I’m sorry for any pain that I caused. Hopefully you will understand.
Credit To – bgends
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57 thoughts on “Eidetic”
Imagine this guy having a Tulpa…
‘To be forced to relive and reconsider each bad decision in one’s life is the ultimate and most effective method to push a soul to it’s breaking point.’
…I liked this story a lot, but this particular line resonated with me.
I have a near-photographic memory, capable of remembering things incredibly well.
However, my anxiety and (likely) borderline personality disorder makes me feel incredibly guilty/bad over the slightest mistake, embarrassing thing, accident, bad experience etc., often to the point of a meltdown.
Put them together and, well… I generally end up haunted by the memories of basically every single bad experience from months or even years back. It’s not pleasant, that’s for sure.
…I should stop sharing anecdotes about myself in comments and just review, yeah? Anyway, it was a really nicely written pasta and it’s definitely been improved from the version on Crappypasta. 9/10!
But did he actually commit suicide or is that part made up?
He did not say a thing about his roommate after he got home
I like the idea of this story. Twist from cliche horror to the kind of horror most of us face everyday. Regret
I think this is pretty good read tbh
I don’t mean this in any offence, but sometimes when i Read the comments and see that some people take the stories for actual events, i start to wonder, like how old are these people reading these stories?
Would of loved if it stopped using “should of” and “would of”. Yeah, the initial mistake is on purpose to illustrate how annoying it was.
I liked this, and unlike most literature, it makes YOU, the reader, reflect on past decisions, and can connect with readers in a way that almost no other media can. Good details, and besides the plot hole, (which can be ignored, as this is a fictional story) it is fantastically written. Except for saying should of, could of, etc.
Overall, I give it 9.5/10.
I like the idea of losing sanity it’s sad yet a story pusher too
Nightlight anyone? Lol omg
Interesting concept, but failed in delivery, especially at the end. It seemed the author got very lazy and used an easy out for the protagonist. 5/10
Usually I hate suicide endings but this one has an exception ;( I cried a little bit.
And this was on crappypasta? HOW DARE YOU WHOEVER THE OWNER IS, I feel like the owner was justing sitting lazily on his couch eating a lot of shit and he read this and he was cracking jokes every two seconds because he is a derpbutt.
A definite admin fail.
I also like the symbolism. :D
It was accepted after the author used his Crappypasta feedback and did a rewrite, so presumably the author wasn’t entirely satisfied with the original version, either.
who was dis mystery man?! And wut does he want from you?..
Ohh, we got a badass here…
im sorry about this if it really happened and guess what the odd thing is is that i can relate to him i can see my memorys and that i’ve considered suicide before honestly guys this does happen so show some respect i know that that can happen to people like us so show some respect
Same with me, dont talk about suicide like it is a normal happy and boring thing. I’ve contemplated suicide and have relived some very scarring and unnerving moments, the feeling is incredibly horrid, show this person a little more respect, its a scary thing.
This fat man somehow reminds me of the ghost of christmas past.
Pulling out a painful mistake made in a distant memory of yours and then lets you live through it again.
And since the main character decides to end it by killing himself, I guess he won’t be meeting the ghost of christmas present and the ghost of christmas future.
I bet that would be interesting to read if he did meet with the two ghosts.
I imagine it would be that much creepier to suddenly have the ability to watch horrible scenes of all the horrid possibilities in which you can die, with extreme clarity, over and over again.
This was very good… Very true. It’s happened to me, and I do not even have that kind of memory. It did tug on some of the thigns that have happened to me, and, it made me see them in another way. Making me see them as okay… Just, something else trying to warn you of something bigger.
Everyone keeps mentioning the lights and whether or not they should have been left on as he went to sleep to keep the “thing” away, but none of you seem to recall the fact that even if he had kept the lights on, he would dream of him or think of him once he closed his eye, thus bringing him back
i think you are very right after all dreaming is just the mind thinking
Doesn’t sound true, didn’t really scare me.. Unlike everyone else I kiiiinda liked the end. But like everyone else said.. KEEP the lights on! It wouldn’t increase the electric bill that much, and it would been well worth it. Night light? Lamp? Did you see a shrink.. Way too many loopholes
It was a very well written story,I loved the whole idea of the special gift the character had. I was just a little unhappy with the ending, but I gave you a 10 so keep it up ^_^
Wonderful story. Your descriptions of your condition are very detailed and that makes your story even more believable. Wonderful story in all, kind of clichéd ending but I still liked it. Very nice work.
okay, this is amazing and a little creepy. i wish i had your powers. i would love to switch with you because i can remember things really well but it’s mainly normal. your power is awesome.
Wow. This story has a great concept. You can go so much further with this!
As for how the story actually went, I was really, really, REALLY liking the beginning and how you were explaining what an eidetic is along with some history, but the ending didn’t quite give a good enough impact in my opinion. The climax of your story was when the man spoke, and it was short lived. Since this Fat Man was something he doesn’t remember and seemed to go against the narrator’s rules, you could’ve gone a bit deeper with it. You could have him NOT disappear when the lights turn on and have him and the narrator have some sort of conversation about all the hurt he has caused instead of having them meet again in his bedroom. It would’ve been one hell of a twist too if the roommate returned to their apartment literally right after the conversation between the narrator and fat man and stumbles back or something because he was able to see the Fat Man as well! All in all 7.5/10, but has the potential to be a 10/10 if you decide to revise it. Hope this helps!
I absolutly loved this! :3
But, Im hoping this is just a story and the ending isn’t what I think it is. I hope not. :c
Suicide endings are weak.
Well, at least the story was narrated before the actual suicide and not after…
I didn’t really like it… It honestly wasn’t very creepy.
He kept saying “should of.” Mother fucker it’s “should have!”
Mother fucker(insert comma here) it’s “should have!”
Very nice, but now I has a sad. :(
I don’t know… I feel that the whole eidetic thing is totally disconnected from the fat man and his actions (not to mention that eidetic memory allows people to visualize things they have seen in the past, not to see them as if there was some holoprojector somewhere, that would be hallucinating, which is definitely not the same thing). And yes, if the images disappear with the light on, and the fat man is no exception, just leave the light on, problem solved.
I loved this! Well… Most of it, suicide ending ruined it for me :( still 9.5/10 Also could of been longer!
Yeah, I was totally digging this story, but then when the suicide happened, I was like “oh. The writer did that. eh”
Yah I know right I don’t like killing
“As always, the light instantly made the man disappear and I was left alone in my apartment.” So why not sleep with the light on? Should fix that, pretty major plot hole. Otherwise pretty decent read.
Electricity costs way too much to sleep with lights on… and I’m sure that the roommate would have an issue with the lights being on… Just my guess.
Well, i’m pretty sure that if he closes his eyes he can see the things anyway.
No, something tells me that the visions are projected around the room like holograms. He’s in a 3-dimentional hallucination taking place in his actual surroundings. So he can’t see everything looking into the darkness of his eyelids.
When he closed his eye’s. All dark.
I can’t sleep with the lights on, i cant even have a digital clock on or it’ll keep me awake lol….. good suggestion though
I thought that this was very well written but I also think that it could’ve been longer.
I hope this is just some story…. And that what you’re apologizing for isn’t what I think it is…
Unfortunately I am getting the same feeling as you and I also am hoping that is not the case but if it is and if you believe in god in heaven please pray for this man/ woman.
I’m pretty sure it’s just a story. You most likely don’t have to worry about it. All fiction.
they are all stories
BUT WHO WAS MAN?
in my opinion the man is that guys image of regret
I think he is the demon of selfishness and regret. his fat body was to represent his greed of instead of visiting his grand mother he decided to hang out with his friends. Regret was being explained when the (old) man kept reminded him of his selfish choice. He is old because the man was the writer
BUT WHAT IF MAN NOT DIE? LETS TAKE CLOSER LOOK!
IF WE READ STORY FEW TIMEWE SEE MAN IS NOT DIE! AMAZING! Wait, did you see that? LETS LOOK AGAIN! /•
Pretty interesting concept.
Would’ve have liked an explaination of what the thing was though.